Pumpkin Wings

I really don’t know why I haven’t blocked and deleted Simon yet. All he does is write to me every day to insult me in one way or another; just now he wrote and was like “for fuck’s sake stop listening to Def Leppard” (it amazes me how he ALWAYS manages to write to me when I’m listening to an 80’s song, he gotta be fucking staring at his MSN window checking for status updates 24/7). Not that this is a horrible insult, but he tends to do more personal attacks as well, it varies. Still I can’t make myself block him - maybe because he’s the only one of my exes who still talks to me. Actually, PROBABLY because of that.

Mum left for a trip to Gothenburg with her job this morning. Before 8pm both she and grandma had called me to check if I was doing alright. I should probably be glad someone cares, and in grandma’s case I’m fine with it, but mum on the other hand… I just get the feeling of being watched. She’s always treating me like I’m still 10. It’s not like I’m 18 and *barely* an adult now - I’m fucking TWENTY.

She’ll come back on Thursday. It’s gonna be DAMN nice to be alone for a bit, even if it’s really just two days. I really want to move out, but I also want to have someone to move in with, and I don’t. I don’t think I’d be able to handle living on my own. Maybe it’d work if I had people (other than mum) who could visit me OFTEN, but I don’t. Oh well, I guess one day I will.

Oh, one of the best things about being home alone overnight: sleeping naked. I’ve also been looking into getting some male underwear so I can walk around topless and feel manly, but I barely even know where to start looking. Anyone knows of a brand that makes colourful undies for men?