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I’m actually talking to Emil on MSN. We’re having a fairly normal conversation. I’m shaking so I can barely write. I’ve cried for the first time in so long.
Lack of updates.
I’ve been feeling very bad lately. I really can’t be assed to update here. Or anywhere. Or talk to anyone except Thomas; other than the people I have to talk to in school. I AM looking forward to seeing Lina on Saturday. Even if I’m sure she’d prefer not to move back to Stockholm, me and my egoism are very happy that she’s back here.
I got an e-mail from Emil today. Part of me wants to write more about it, but so far I’ve managed to stay calm so I don’t want to whip up an emotional storm. It’s not good news; and thus I’ve only even read the mail through once. I’m going to leave it until I feel more stable.
I just thought I’d update here to like, y’know, let anyone who might actually be checking my blog know that I’m alive, doing horribly, but will hopefully be updating more again when I feel better.