Pumpkin Wings

We’ve already got a response from the insurance company. Since the camera’s “old” they’re taking off 40% of the price. When paying insurance for stolen items they apparently also deduct a 1500 SEK (currently around $190 or €155) fee. That leaves nothing, so we’re not getting anything from them. Mum’s going to pay half the new camera though, and I’ll take the other half from the money I was going to save this month, so I’m getting my new camera tomorrow anyway.

I might not update with a lot of pictures anywhere anymore, but I’m still addicted to having a good camera. I take it with me everywhere, and now that I haven’t had a camera in over a month I realize how much I love being able to take pictures of random things when I want to. I’ve also really felt like starting to update my “image diary” (Bilddagboken for you Swedes) again, and now that the weather’s good I’d love to take pictures of all the cats at and around Emil’s house. Having Emil also means there’s someone who can take pictures of my outfits etc for me - and oh, there’s our new aquarium! Fish, shrimps and crabs to photograph!

Stay tuned for future photo updates! Not this week though; I’ll be at Emil’s house until Wednesday or so.

A shrimp and a crab (they don’t like the snails), drawn on MSN.

I’m currently really motivated to keep this blog updated for whatever reason, can you tell? Now I just need to get some more readers… And work on an “about me” page and such stuff. Anyway.

I’ve decided to start collecting My Little Ponies. I’m not exactly sure what happened; I bought some retarded MLP book at a toy store to add to mine and Emil’s collection of children’s books to cheer us up when we need it (mostly because I knew he’d hate it though), and suddenly I felt the urge to buy some actual ponies. I looked around and realized that Hasbro picked out a “Core Seven” a couple of years ago and are now ONLY releasing those seven ponies over and over again in different positions and playsets etc, which is not only utterly boring, but most of them are ugly as hell too. But then I found Dream Valley - and now there’s no saving me from the pony madness. I’ve literally spent days making a list of all the ponies I want from generations 1, 2 and 3 (and the very few from 3.5), looked them up on eBay to get an idea of prices, etc etc. Now I believe I have a complete checklist of ponies with edible stuff and/or rainbows as symbols (which is what I’ll be collecting; I don’t care much for flowers and such crap) and am ready to go. I’ve already received my first two ponies in the mail, and today I won seven more on Tradera. I’m holding off buying G2 and late G1 ponies for now though as I’m not sure what I have hidden away from my childhood.

Me and collecting are the best of friends - it’s in my genes. I haven’t really had anything interesting to collect lately though, so I just know this is gonna keep me occupied and make me feel better (except for the money waste part of it…)

I hate when people I know break up with their partners, especially if they’ve been together for a long time.

Now life seems to have almost completely removed my ability to feel happy for other people except for a very few chosen ones, so it’s not really because I’m feeling bad for them, it’s rather because I feel bad for not feeling bad for them. However, it’s mostly because it’s a reminder that no matter how happy me and Emil are now, how much we love each other at the moment and how lovely plans for the future we make together you just never know what happens. We’ve talked about our relationship a lot this time and I trust that he really loves me and believes right now that he always will, but I’m far too scarred by bad experiences to be able to believe that I’ll be lucky enough to have him here for the rest of my life. I know it sounds very emo, but I’ve always had severe problems with all kinds of relationships - love, family, friends… I push it away, but I’m reminded now and then.

I love when people I know break up with their partners, especially if they’ve been together for a long time. It makes me feel like my relationship is better than theirs because he is still there.

I’ve just cleaned Morgan’s head thoroughly with acetone. It’s soaking in a bowl of water now, gonna see if that removes the last pastel, otherwise Ima have to find something extremely small to apply more acetone with. Cleaning a BJD head is a serious pain - there are so many little creases, especially in the ears. Every time I strip him of his face-up I’m reminded of what a pretty mold he is. I wish I could give him a really good face-up to do it justice. I was pretty satisified with the last one, except for the eyebrows. The strands were way too thick, but how the hell do you paint hair-thin strands anyway? It’s really hard to get enough paint to make an entire strand and still not make it too thick. I’ll have to look up more tutorials I guess.

The weather’s nice now (well looks nice; it’s too hot for me) and I’d like to take him outside for some photo shooting. However my camera was stolen on a class trip to Rome last month, so that’s impossible atm. Me and mum filed a claim with the police today, and also contacted our insurance company. Hopefully we’ll get at least some money for it, and mum will give me some money as well, so I should be able to get a new camera fairly soon without going completely broke. I’ve already picked out the camera I want - Canon Digital IXUS 130.

I really want another BJD still, but I don’t have an income at all right now, and I also just don’t feel good about ordering another one when I haven’t even paid that much attention to Morgan. I like to say it’s not completely my fault though. At first I didn’t have any MSC for his face-up, then it was winter and I couldn’t take him outside, and now I don’t have a camera. I’m content, I know that I love him and am just waiting for the perfect stuff for him (like I don’t buy him a crapload of clothes just to have a huge wardrobe, I want to find stuff I really like instead and thus he only has two outfits or so atm), but I’m worried that people will think I’m retarded for spending more than $650 on him and then not doing anything with him.

Morgan with his huge-ass eyebrows:

Since I wrote about this yesterday I might as well post an update on what’s happening.

So the seller mailed me back, apologized for possibly sounding rude and pointed out that she’s had bad experiences before. Fine. I was content with that. Not that it’s my fault that she’s had bad experiences, but yeah alright. Well, today I check my mail and surprise - she’s mailed me again. Let me quote:

“I hope you understand that I have Swedbank, and if you have any other bank the money won’t be on my account until Tuesday if you’re gonna refuse to pay before tomorrow. Unfortunately that’s not OK.”

Alright. What the FUCK is her problem? I never said I was gonna “refuse to pay before tomorrow” - I’m paying her today, and the money will be on her account tomorrow - like I told her. Now will she stop spaming me EVERY DAY!? Seriously, I’m damn annoyed now. Ima keep you posted on this transaction because it’s probably the worst seller I’ve encountered so far. (That’s bad. I’ve done a lot of online shopping, not only on Tradera.)

Ima try to get this blog running again. Short update about what’s happened while I was gone: Me and Emil are back togther, I spend about half the weeks at his place, and I’ve dropped out of school *again*. That’s all, really. Now I’d like to share my current annoyance.

I won a t-shirt on Tradera (Swedish eBay) on Thursday this week. In the automatic “winner mail” the seller said I had to pay within 3 days, fair enough. I figured I’d pay tomorrow (Sunday) as I was just about to go to Emil’s house and as the third day is today, Saturday, she won’t get her money faster if I pay today. Actually I’m not even sure if today is the last day or if t’s really tomorrow; depends on if you count the day I won or not. Anyway it doesn’t matter as it’s a weekend.

I’m still at Emil’s house, he’s out driving with his mum atm (about to get his license) so I thought I’d check my e-mail etc. Apparently I received one e-mail yesterday (one day after winning the shirt) from the seller, reminding me to pay. Today (two days after winning) I had received another one, threatening to leave negative feedback if she didn’t have her money by Monday.

Say what? Two days, two e-mails of which one is a threat? I try to stay VERY calm and nice when dealing with sellers because I don’t want to risk negative feedback, but this time all I could reply was “I’ve been away TWO days and you’re threatening me already? You’ll have your money by Monday, which should be fine according to your winner mail. Excuse the rude tone, but.. Calm down.”

Was I rude to her?
What should I write in the feedback for her?
Anyone else had any annoying experiences on eBay or similar sites?

I’m really sad that my first update in almost four months has to be about this.

On the morning of May 16th Ronnie James Dio passed away after half a year’s battle with stomach cancer. He wasn’t young, but he was too young. He died aged 67.

Dio was one of those old rock legends you thought were going to live forever. One of the very key icons of heavy metal has left us. One of the masters who first made me turn to metal. Holy Diver was the first metal CD I bought - and that’s not because I was young during the 80’s; I actually wasn’t. I was born in 1989. It’s because Dio is absolutely classic, and he deserves every smidge of his fame. I tend to use the word “legend” quite sparingly, but for Dio there is no other word that qualifies. Dio is the Italian word for god, and if we’re talking Heavy Metal Gods (as bands like Manowar tend to like to do), then Dio’s definitely up there with them. I am very happy to have had the chance to see him live before it was too late.

Rest in peace, Ronnie James Dio.
I did not listen to you a lot the last few years,
but you meant a lot to me.
You’ve had your part in shaping who I am.